HOW THE LOTTERY HAS NOT CHANGED MY LIFE

Work six days a week;  social security early retirment (50%cut cause early minus $200 cause they say I'm in arrears) and my total monthly income nets $200 per month less than  unemployment.  This was not the plan.  Is there any way out of this other than the lottery?

What the fuck was all that Froo-Fra about?

Wow, forgot about this blog; it's five years later and i wonder what was all that froo-fra about? All that bullshit?  That was the end of using and trying to get clean.  Damn this blog can be my first step forever.

October 8, 2010

Holy shit. I forgot about this blog and just rediscovered it. I am selling cars at Fast Eddies Sensible Rentals. I have my own car again....independence. Teeth are worse than ever, I can't talk without the bottom bridge falling out; it comes out with soup or ice cream now. Bill is going to Ireland today and I celebrated 2 years last night. Turning Point tonight, did Sea Bright last Friday and celebrated. Everything changes...nothing changes.

May 1, 2009

Time to restart this; it is one of those totally frustrating moments ...it 's the nite of seabright again after a public announcement. The F is just arrived; the takeover is w/o recourse; total frustration from not being able to call my own shots and cannot come/go as I please; this moment alone is reason enough to never use again.

OH OK....SO EVERYTHING DOES CHANGE

There was no time to write due to depression, now there's no time to write due to activity..happiness....I have escaped the 'Wrath of Vonage'; I am a schoolteacher again, oh happy day...I see the sun, I get home while it is daylight..I am happy and will close down this blog and create one for the real me now that I am back in town (my skull)

New Day New Time Everything is THE SAME

Friday again, end of pay period..i'll gripe next week when once again I will be missing three days pay. Have now 40% of my mouth as false teeth..not caps, not bridges............FALSE teeth! As I'm leaving they say "that'll be $600"...now what? I'm bouncing checks already and it's a week until payday. No wonder people commite suicide..and the IRS is after me again. Sixteen months last time until I proved I was correct and they issued a check for @$4000---->issued it to Student Loans ...(oh wow, how'd I fall behind on loan payments during those 16 months when IRS levied my bank accounts four times, got a judgement and garnered my UNEMPLOYMENT!!???)
Suicide actually is an option.
Except for the hope of a job offer...........yeah an offer that has no benefits, same pay ..but whoop dee doo.........less hateful and at least I'd be treated as a professional.
Yes, teaching school to drug addicted, crack baby fetal alcohol syndrome rich kids is MUCH MUCH less stressful than technical assistance customer service for the 'Woo Hoo' company. Do all customer service jobs suck this much?

Where will I get $600? How will I make it through 8 days when I am already bouncing checks? Will I kill myself? Will someone buy out Vonage? How'd I get to this place in life?

The World Does Not Need Dial Tone

Friday the 14th; missed three unpaid days of work two weeks ago so today's paycheck makes the job from hell even worse...like the job from beneath hell. It's really cool to do technical support customer service for a cheap internet phone company....after all, who risks their phone stability for a house phone to save maybe $20. Well---cheap people of course, then dumb people who think they're very clever, then poor people..they'd be the biggest group..like REALLY poor........(as in working with a green card and not yet learned to speak english)..try explaining the difference between the modem and the router to someone who keeps breaking ..into Hindi when getting frustrated with you because you're using vocabulary they haven't assimilated yet. Then, of course, there's my inadequacy to deal with I cannot understand what they mean when every electrical appliance in the house (except the TV and refrigerator) is a 'modem' and in the thickest of accents---> is it the white modem or the blue one, should I plug it into the black one? ...hmm "what does each of them say on it? what are the models?".....oh, I can't see that...there's too many wires.......so?...you fix it now?